Miscellaneous anxiety
nekosasu | September 19, 2009 | 10:09 pm
As I said on twitter, I feel very anxious right now, and in an attempt to identify the cause of this unrest, I thought I felt the necessity of updating this blog. Maybe it’s that, maybe it’s not.
I’m not posting because there have been little updates, but because there’s this kind of… pressure? from the ending season, the series that already have finished, and those that are about to finish. There’s Aoi Hana and Tokyo Magnitude 8.0 which I told myself to clear as soon as possible to make room for the other series, and here I am in my self-proclaimed boredom, playing Odin Sphere and Love Plus, feeling compelled to post this filler post, perhaps as an excuse for backlogging anime. I really don’t know. We all know though, yes, it’s pathetic, heh.
In any case, Odin Sphere… well. I played it for 2-3 hours, and while I am amazed by the graphics and the original gameplay, I don’t feel this urge to play it at all. I can’t really say the story triggers my interest. It might also be just the fact that my backpack is so stupidly small that I always need to drop stuff (and I HATE dropping stuff). In any case, I’ll put it on hold for the time being, and hope to play it some time later. Not even Sawashiro Miyuki’s voice, which I heard a couple of seconds before turning my PS2 off, managed to keep me tuned.
I make it sound as if that game was shit, well it certainly isn’t, but my attention is simply missing. Or perhaps it’s just that I still can’t let go of the Ar Tonelico universe. I read the newest Toukousphere yesterday, and it had some interesting information about Hymmnos and Cosmospheres. Been thinking of doing a weekly coverage of it, and/or translating it for the few Ar Tonelico enthusiasts out there. Depends on my motivation, or general demand. But in the end, it would boil down on just attracting attention. See, if I translated it and linked my blog on weeaboo places like /jp/, it would be instant success heh. However, that scenario is pretty much unlikely anyway; this sounds so much like my usual half-assed promises I make every other week around here.
Besides, I wanted to review the manga Ar Tonelico ~arpeggio~ too, but in my mysterious status quo boredom, I started playing Love Plus this morning. And I already earned a heart-warming confession from Nene. Apparently, it’s just the beginning… but suddenly, I’m being overwhelmed with instructions about that new game mode, and I can’t read kanji that well yet. So now I’m burning to advance with Nene as soon as possible, but I just don’t want to do anything (wrong) before I understand it all… Gah. I dread dedicating some of my everyday time to a virtual girlfriend - it just serves to amplify the subconscious awareness of my roneriness. Is it already the end for the two of us?
This all said, I still haven’t found the reason why I’m worried right now. I thought it was because a writer just left me; because I am stalling on anime, and I’d end up missing out on all the interesting end of season talk in the sphere; because I can’t enjoy any other game because I still can’t let go of Ar Tonelico; because I’m feeling happy that a cute 2D girl tells me she loves me, 夏 猫さす; because of all of this, and the fact that I am leaving for the UK for good next Friday, so my free time is now limited; because nobody cares about personal rants like these?
I am wasting my precious time worrying about the time I am now wasting. I need to take it easy.
[un]schedule ^^ Seriously, the flow of life sometimes isn’t fitting for “stating-and-doing” but simply “doing.” Whatever you do, it works, if you don’t have a schedule it’s fine. I find that starting something randomly, leads to accomplishing more, than if I try to always stick to a schedule. ^^
Just chillax and everything will be fine. Should be interesting in UK I think. ^^;
As for Odin Sphere, I raged when I had to keep dropping stuff from my backpack.
Take it eaaaassssyyyyyyyy. Give yourself a short vacation away from everything (like 3 days) and then all will be well.
Just woke up, and I already see things a little clearer.
@RyanA: Ya, I usually start stuff on a whim, then struggle to finish it. This time I wanted to prove myself (and many silent naysayers) wrong, that I wouldn’t start dropping stuff again. Then again, looking at the current post draft number (2)… I could do more on that front.
@Reltair: I hope so, thanks. About Odin Sphere, I should test it on my laptop first. If it doesn’t work well, the earliest I’ll be able to play it again will be in December…
@Glo: Sometimes I’d just feel like doing that, but then my internal “attention whore” starts caring about the short attention span of the sphere… Still lives in the past century. He still doesn’t believe in RSS readers, heh.
No but the thing is, I don’t know how it will all turn out in the UK (internet-wise and so), so I’d rather clear all of my stuff before experiencing a forced backlog/hiatus.
There’s always the wonderful world of DDL if all else fails. ;)
I’m actually glad I have nothing to watch this Autumn. Time to actually get to work? :P
I actually have recently been playing Muramasa, from the creators of Odin Sphere if I remember correctly. I feel very similar to how you do about Odin Sphere. The game is fun, but the story isn’t all that interesting, and there are little things that bug me. It is fun to play, but I don’t find myself looking forward/dying to play it.
I plan to check out Odin Sphere eventually, I swear!
It’d be a shame if it doesn’t work on your laptop. How are you planning to play on your laptop? Via capture card or something? I was also wondering to myself if that would be possible because not having to bring a TV to college next year would be wonderful.
Good luck on Friday until December, even though you’ll be busy, I hope you find time to update once in a while!